Ilana Charnelle Gelbart

Actor | Chanteuse

Enough – Ilana Charnelle — August 3, 2020

Enough – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

If this is it, then this is it 

I’m not going to beg you to stay

If you want to leave then the door is open

If you want to run, I’m too tired to chase

You know where to find me

I’m right where I’ve always been 

You can change your mind

But I won’t be checking in

I’ll be looking forward, looking in

Look past the past into what might begin

I’ll be falling down, dusting myself off

Not always standing strong

But still standing is enough

If, to my devastation, I never get that invitation

Even though I swore that I would 

And don’t get all of it, well thank god I saw part of it 

I did everything that I could

No, I didn’t have it hardest

But that doesn’t mean it was fun

I won’t bemoan my battles

Coz look what they’ve become

I’ll be looking forward, looking in

Look past the past into what might begin

I’ll be falling down, dusting myself off

Not always standing strong

But still standing is enough

Just keep looking forward, looking in

Look past the past into what might begin

Keep on falling down, dusting yourself off

Not always standing strong

But still standing is enough

Happy For Me – Ilana Charnelle —

Happy For Me – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

You told me it’d be easy for me to move on

But you told me that you were the only one

Who’d ever treat me, the way you treat me

Wish I’d known just how right that was

Years and years and oceans away

Unravelling what I wanted to say

And you? You’ll find another ingenue 

To distract you from whatever you’re going through

Hope it stings just a little

Don’t hope you’re broken, but I hope you’re brittle

It’ll burn going down that I made it out somehow

Not happy for your misery

But god I’m happy for me

The hardest part of leaving is staying gone

But lucky you wasted no time in moving on

You were so happy, ask anybody

But you never stayed happy for long

We soar, we cry, we get up each day

It’s worth the fight to live this way

And you? You’ll find another ingenue 

To distract you from whatever you’re going through

Hope it stings just a little

Don’t hope you’re broken, but I hope you’re brittle

It’ll burn going down that I made it out somehow

Not happy for your misery

But god I’m happy for me

Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry for you

You won’t feel sorry cause you never had to 

Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry for you

And all the girls you’ll cycle through

Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry for you

You won’t feel sorry cause you never had to 

Sorry, sorry, I’m sorry for you

And all the girls you’ll cycle through

Hope it stings just a little

Don’t hope you’re broken, but I hope you’re brittle

It’ll burn going down that I made it out somehow

Not happy for your misery

No, no, no, no

But I hope it stings just a little

Don’t hope you’re broken, but I hope you’re brittle

It’ll burn going down that I made it out somehow

Not happy for your misery

But god I’m happy for me

Love Slow – Ilana Charnelle —

Love Slow – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

I always dive deep, dig my heels in 

Say that I want danger, so I want him 

Run fast, like I’m being chased 

Or maybe if I stop I’ll realise my mistake 

I’m always spinning, dancing on a string 

Walking on the tightrope in between 

The thrill of it all and then pain when it ends 

How many heartbreaks before it never mends

I gotta learn to love slow, to make mistakes and let ‘em go

To be less familiar with rising from the ash

I gotta learn to see it through, to treat you how I promised to 

To see eye to eye instead of sleeping back to back 

And if you wait with me while I do

I’ll learn to love slow with you

Bared teeth, learned to fight 

After a thousand times not being treated right 

Claws came out, earned my stripes

So forgive me if I thought you weren’t my type 

I’m always yearning, begging for someone 

To throw me the smallest scrap of their love 

Till you came along, handed over your plate 

Sated me with that soft look on your face 

I gotta learn to love slow, to make mistakes and let ‘em go

To be less familiar with rising from the ash

I gotta learn to see it through, to treat you how I promised to 

To see eye to eye instead of sleeping back to back 

And if you wait with me while I do

I’ll learn to love slow with you

Dive deep, dig my heels in 

I fight the same these days but sometimes I give in

Run fast, but you know to wait 

For me to run back and say I’ve made a mistake 

I gotta learn to love slow, to make mistakes and let ‘em go

To be less familiar with rising from the ash

I gotta learn to see it through, to treat you how I promised to 

To see eye to eye instead of sleeping back to back 

And if you wait with me while I do

Please wait with me while I do

And if you wait with me while I do

I’ll learn to love slow with you

Your Way – Ilana Charnelle —

Your Way – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

I needed you for the longest time

For the life of me, I couldn’t tell you why

Every match I was on your side

But I lost the will to fight

People don’t change, I know you, I know your way

It’s too cold now, I’m too old now to stay

I’m hoisting the flag, I admit defeat

Fought through good and bad but I don’t think I can make you happy 

Nothing wrong with that, it’s bittersweet

I held it all in till I started falling but now I think that I’ve found my feet

I needed you for the longest time

For the life of me, I couldn’t tell you why

Every match I was on your side

But I lost the will to fight

People don’t change, I know you, I know your way

It’s too cold now, I’m too old now to stay

You keep spilling words, they’re falling at my feet

Rising under my chin until I feel that I can’t breathe

Yes you’re always right, yes you know best

I held it all in but that shit gets boring and now I think I need a rest

I needed you for the longest time

For the life of me, I couldn’t tell you why

Every match I was on your side

But I lost the will to fight

People don’t change, I know you, I know your way

It’s too cold now, I’m too old now to stay

I needed you for the longest time

But it doesn’t sting to say goodbye

Always there, always on your side

But you never made it on to mine

People don’t change, I know you, I know your way

It’s too cold now, I’m too old now to stay

So take a bow, I’ll get out of your way

I’m so done now, it’s no fun now to stay

To Be Wanted – Ilana Charnelle —

To Be Wanted – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020)

Everyone said we were perfect 

So why don’t we give it a try 

So I went and stood by your front door

But you never let me inside 

Everyone told me your story 

That your hand would fit right in mine 

But every time I would smile at you 

You would turn your gaze aside 

All I wanted was to 

Be wanted by someone like you 

All I wanted was a minute of your time 

All I dreamed of was

To someday be dreamed of cause

If I’m not wanted then what will I leave behind

If I’m not yours then what on Earth is mine

The rooms are quiet without you 

Some days I don’t open the blind

I look in the mirror but shudder

Over the years I left behind

I wait by the letterbox daily

Though you never did change your mind 

The thousand pleas that I wrote you

Must have not made it in time 

All I wanted was to 

Be wanted by someone like you 

All I wanted was a minute of your time 

All I dreamed of was

To someday be dreamed of cause

If I’m not wanted then what will I leave behind

If I’m not yours then what on Earth is mine

Everyone said we were perfect

I tried every damn day of my life 

For a wink, or a whisper from you

The silence still cuts like a knife

Gunshot – Ilana Charnelle —

Gunshot – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

I heard a gunshot outside my window 

I thought I loved you but now I don’t know

I thought my words had all dried out

I heard a gunshot and pictured your mouth 

And the way you can say anything 

And make it feel like a kiss or a wound 

Time will keep me restless and wandering 

But it’ll get the best of you 

I heard the stories, my eyes were open 

I thought you were god but I stopped hoping 

You stole the things I could never say 

I heard the stories but worshipped anyway 

And I hope one day the tide starts turning 

I hope you’re punished for all you did 

Time will make martyrs of the deserving 

And I hope it shares everything you hid 

I heard a gunshot outside my window 

I thought I loved you, but now I don’t know

I thought my words had all dried out 

I heard a gunshot but pictured your mouth

I heard a gunshot but pictured your mouth

Bad News – Ilana Charnelle —

Bad News – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

I am a moth and you’re the flame

You are my favourite kind of pain

And I am allergic to leaving things alone

I know it’s not worth it but I still pick up the phone

Cause I am Eve and you’re a snake

I shouldn’t be aching for a taste

But I sink my teeth in time and again

Trade in heaven for your original sin

Cause, ooh

You could bet the devil and he’d lose

The addiction that I didn’t choose 

You, you’re bad news, bad, bad news

But, hey

If you charged for romance I would pay

If it meant I didn’t have to play

All these games you’re driving me insane

But, hey

You’re bad, bad news

Some type of magic, you’re the pyre

Can’t you see you’re setting me on fire

Know it’s all illusion, but you’re in control

You cut me to pieces and you swallow me whole

And maybe it was a mistake

Don’t know how much I can take

I didn’t know anything could

Tear me apart but feel so good

Cause, ooh

You could bet the devil and he’d lose

The addiction that I didn’t choose 

You, you’re bad news, bad, bad news

But, hey

If you charged for romance I would pay

If it meant I didn’t have to play

All these games you’re driving me insane

But hey

You’re bad, bad news

You’re Not Watching – Ilana Charnelle —

You’re Not Watching – Ilana Charnelle

From the album A Minute of Your Time (2020).

They don’t write love songs for the lonely  

It’s always ‘the one’ never ‘hold me’ 

They never say what happened

If you’re not happy in the end

They won’t write pretty things about me

It’s either anger or they’ll doubt me

They never hang around to see

If I drowned or got set free

And it’s not the same if you’re not watching

I’ve got a point to make, and I’ve come knocking

On every goddamn door that ever slammed in my face

Yeah, I’ve got some scores to settle, and I’m sick of being gentle 

And it’s not the same if you’re not watching

I was soft once, but it bored me 

Cause every knock, well it floored me

I don’t mourn, I paid the price 

There’s nothing easy about being nice 

And it’s not the same if you’re not watching

I’ve got a point to make, and I’ve come knocking

On every goddamn door that ever slammed in my face

Yeah, I’ve got some scores to settle, and I’m sick of being gentle 

And it’s not the same if you’re not watching

So watch me, cause it’s not the same

No, it’s not the same if you’re not watching 

And wondering, and discussing 

So keep watching

Keep It Up – Ilana Charnelle — October 23, 2017

Keep It Up – Ilana Charnelle

From the album Play Nice (2018).

I want you to come back so that I can say nothing
I want you to ask so I can turn you away
I want you to beg, to regret, to repent
But most of all I want you to see things my way

Like how you’d insist that you needed more of me
That I was neglectful, a mess and real mean
You’d run for the hills if I forgot to pet you
A lost puppy, always needing to be seen

You needed me there, I gave you up
So you ran into her arms to cry
You did what you’ve done, so you’ll get what you’ve got
I just hope that you can keep it up
Yeah, I just hope that you can keep it up

I just know that now you’re living the same way
In your fog of virtuous truth
But it’s her who’ll be yes-ing, and sweating and guessing
A slave to all the things that you have to do

Like hiding in bed when the going gets tricky
And following through is just too hard
Better to back out of responsibility
Coz you know you can’t fail if you never start

You wanna give up, it’s all too much
You need to suck everyone dry
You did what you’ve done, so you’ll get what you’ve got
I just hope that you can keep it up
Yeah, I just hope that you can keep it up

It’s funny before me, your last did the same thing
So you ran into my arms to cry
If it’s always the same thing, suffocating then blaming
Surely you would start wondering why

But you did what you’ve done, so you’ll get what you’ve got
But you did what you’ve done, so you’ll get what you’ve got
But you did what you’ve done, so you’ll get what you’ve got
I just hope that you can keep it up
Yeah, I just hope that you can keep it up

Cool – Ilana Charnelle —

Cool – Ilana Charnelle

From the album Play Nice (2018).

I’ve always liked things I shouldn’t
And I’ve always loved like other girls wouldn’t
I don’t wanna say I was biding my time
But I’ve always thought that you could be mine
 
But hey, now, I’m speeding ahead
He said no, so I’ll put it to bed
I’m so sick of dipping my toes in the water
Just to watch you all end up with each other
 
I’ll take my words, cut them into pieces
Throw them on the floor, pretend I’m a genius
If I liked rock and roll, or my hair was real red
You’d call me your cool girl, you’d see me again
 
But hey, now, I’m speeding ahead
He said no, so I’ll put it to bed
I’m so sick of dipping my toes in the water
Just to watch you all end up with each other
 
I’ll take my words, cut them into pieces
Throw them on the floor, it’s Bowie, it’s genius
You’re leather-edged sadness, you’re rock and roll cool
I’ll stick to my madness, at least I know the rules
 
But hey, now, I’m speeding ahead
He said no, so I’ll put it to bed
I’m so sick of dipping my toes in the water
Just to watch you all end up with each other
End up with each other
End up with each other
End up with each other
With each other